spiritually lazy

When  extinction occurs it is normally not just one thing that runs out and happens. Its a number of events that go on at once so that the species simply cant recover. 

The prophecies are already happening its not a timeline. If we are present we can see the future we know whats happening because of our experience of the past and the prophecies.  You and I are a prophecy right here. A lot of people are not understanding that. They are looking at the weather forecast or the stock market for indications.

We cant be the chosen people, there is no such thing. There seems to be this human need to claim spiritual superiority. If you are chosen then that leads to an easier redemption, a evil or good ,a salvation point mentality. 
Salvation point mentality started with religion … someone else is going to come and save you. 
So we have given our power away for someone else to solve the problem and that to me has nothing to do with personal sovereignty. We give the power away and depend on them to protect us when we forget how to do all of those things ourselves. Because that's the way our society is. Remove your power and give it to the system.

Im Thankful

 form to mermaid

unisex flash 

 a wail of anguish

set to be different

Story Buddies

You can live a million years and at the end of it all, look back and judge just what it was you engaged in.. Invest in shoes that demonstrate how you are an adult now and care about fashion as well as your feet. Why is it that when 30's are around the corner you can look in your closet and find jeans that have holes in inappropriate places? Get rid of them. At this point you should have years of experience dealing with your emotions and bullshit under your belt. No longer can the angst card be used to defend your actions, time to take responsibility. As well no one wants to hear about meaningless drama, i. g., anything that has nothing to do with bills, death, and illness is not as big of a deal as you think.  That metabolism is not what it use to be time to think about what you put in your body. Suddenly you want nice things and feel the need to keep them in good condition. Grownups dont have issues with their parents. You start to realize what it must have been like to raise a monster such as yourself, (I was horrible) and you find a middle ground to get along.  Refuse to engage in texting important messages. This is a horrible laxidasical way to not step up and take the extra time to say what you have to say face to face, like an adult! No longer partaking in dating games or not feeling comfortable asking for what your needs are. If you dont treat people like adults then they just might not act like one. Not falling for the cool pair of jeans, hip t-shirt, beard, tattoos, or grownup man boots. These are nothing more than things that anyone can have and wear. There’s no checklist that makes a successful woman. Right? No one is better than anyone else but in the realm of adulthood it is important to embrace who you are. At some point the coin was flipped and that strong need to go out and get into the mix of things is gone. Feeling content to stay home and entertain yourself seems to be a definite sign of womanhood. Not to mention being able to really pick who you spend your time with and enjoy their company. This is not to say that you no longer go out at all but more that you know when its time to put on your best gear and show face.

Do you remember when you where in grade school and how everyone for the most part got along? You didnt care about who was dating who and what so-and-so said.  Then the time came for you to go to junior high. That was when the whole mess started. Suddenly it was important to be cool. Waking up early every morning to make sure your outfit and your attitude was just right. This is were the fun stops and the everyday constant concern of what other people are doing, wearing, saying, listening to, reading, and thinking begins. You never understood why your parents didnt care about being cool. The years go by and  for some reason you seem to get use to it. All of this crap no longer becomes an issue but second nature. Some find their place in the social ladder sooner than others, that's a given. Yet in living in this world you hit a point and suddenly it all makes sense. When you feel good about who you are, simultaneously as if though it was a miracle you understand your parents so much more.   

I'm not cool. I was never cool and at this point in my life it seems to be the best realization that I have already known. 

I miss the days of the pager. Give me back my light green beeper that I had in high school. Where the worse that happened was the abuse of putting  911 in their page just so you call back. Having a landline phone with an answering machine. Letting it ring and ring, well you act like you weren't home. Today I have a little black phone that is always by my side and I check Facebook at least once a day. Its becoming harder and harder to fall off the face of the planet yet easier to think of reasons to. I dont need to know every little detail about everyone's life and yet I still read those post. Facebook seems to feed this whole new kind of narcissism. Whatever it takes to be part of  the social hierarchy of  today in regards of  modern technology I'm sure I don't have it and am not fully on board. Clearly  I do participate but know that I'm not doing it right. I am soon to be a person who has given up. 

YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT !

 Everyone is in transition just trying to find their path.

forget it

There has to be something to making the same mistake over and over. I wasnt myself.

Just in time

I was just about to throw in the towel and claim that the heat has won the battle. My energy level and life was feeling as if though it was being sucked out of me. Over 60 days of the weather being 100 degrees or higher.  NOT Today........

 TODAY its 81!!!!!      

i'll follow your lead

whats important

Nothing comes to mind

this journey is almost over, i'm the only one left.
you don't have to be in a battle to feel like a villain. life has to feel so distant if you're always hungry.

Damn you Heat!!!

 

                       Its too hot!

beware of the soulless cool

I often dream about being hopelessly abandoned and rebuilding from the pit of desperation, where simple aspects of human life are considered heroic. Though you feel that death is a finality, in truth its actually a lost of everyone you care about. This can happen at any given moment. I can't help but have curiosity about it or how it would feel. The reality of lost is devastating where the fantasies of survival is empowering.

Today is a day of Voodoo

When I die I want you to cremate me and throw my ashes in tom selleck's face.

on some level i think i always craved a larger dose of functionality.